When all seems lost and there is no hope...WORK OUT!

Soooo, today has been rough and I have so much on my mind. Most importantly, I am missing my friend like a fat kid misses cake :( so much so, that my heart is hurting. What am I to do about it so that I don't think about missing this friend...I WORK OUT!!

I pushed play 3 times today and ran 8.03 miles this morning. At lunch did some INSANITY Pure Cardio, got out of work early and pushed play with Tony and some P90X2 Power and Balance. After this workout, damn it if I didn't have more energy (thank you results and recovery formula), did me some Turbo Fire 45!! I ROCKED THE SHIT OUT OF TODAY!! I really don't care if I'm going to hurt tomorrow...WORTH IT!


Stop wasting your hard earned money on gym fees...THIS is how I lost 83 pounds!

Ive turned to my Catholic Faith alot lately. When I'm sitting in Mass or at Adoration with God, I feel like a weight has been lifted and that He is speaking to me and when I pray to Him in the AM and at night, I feel that little flicker of Hope from Him telling me that this pain I'm feeling and the hurt that I'm carrying will pass. With a tear that falls from my face after my evening prayers/Rosary, I let out a sigh and know that He will take care of me and the Everything is going to be OK. It may rough right now, but I believe that He knows my hurt/pain and will take care of me :)

"...but those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint."

-Isaiah 40:31

I know there's sunshine behind that rain, I know there's good times behind that pain; Can you tell me how I can make a change? I close my eyes and I can see a brighter day; I close my eyes and pray;  I close my eyes and I can see a better day.

Where has time gone?!

It appears as if I have neglected to update my blog in a long time. Alot has happened in my life. I'm trying this new thing called GROWING UP! Ha! More like letting go. Its not easy at all and Im trying really hard here. Thats a whole new blog post though. My life has been great. I have become a bit OCD lately and reorganized my entire house. There is a place for everything and everything has a place...everything also has a label. Seriously, everything has a label! Its not just OCD in regards to my belongings, I am dedicated to my workouts these days. Ive also been getting alot of shit in regards to how much I workout an how much I am losing. To them I want to say that I'm not too skinny and if they think that theyre crazy! I am in fact healthy but not skinny. If I was skinny, you would be able to see my bones...you cant. I also get that people think I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder alot...This pisses me off!! I can stop and I know when to take a rest day. Its all about pushing myself to the limits and knowing my body. I have never in my life fit into a size 4 or been under 150 pounds, I have no intentions of ever going back to that big. I am in THE best shape of my life! Yep, even better than High School :D Without "magic pills", I got this way with Hard Work, Persistance, Dedication, and the old fashioned way...EXERCISE! You only get one life, Make the most of it...You only get one body...Take care of it! Let me break it down for ya...I am up at 0400 and out on the road at 0415. I run on average at least 6 miles a day and on Saturday's its a LONG run day. Which means, I run no less that 10 miles...unless there is a race that day. I love running, If you would have asked me a year ago if I was a runner I probably would have laughed in your face. Today, I am a RUNNER, my day is not the same without some milage. After my AM run I eat a BIG breakfast to get that metabolism started, shower, coffee, and get ready for my day. By 0700, Im sitting in my living room watching The TODAY show. I workout again at lunch. This varies and depends on how I am feeling as to which workout I do. Usually its a HIIT with TurboFire just to keep that metabolism going :) Finally after work its the primary program that I do that workout for the day. Currently, I am doing P90X2. Incredibly difficult program!! Honestly, I dont think I would be able to do the program had I not completed the other programs. I am only on Phase one week 2, but I can see a difference and have dropped 6 pounds so far. I am at 135 right now. I know it may seem like I do workout alot, but this was a lifestyle change all the way around. I dont eat red meat at all and Shakeology is part of my diet daily. Tons of fruits and veggies and mostly organic/gluten free food. I cut out milk all together and will only drink coconut milk. Alcohol is in moderation and usually liquor only because it has less caloric intake. The best advice Ive gotten from Turbofire, WRITE DOWN WHAT YOU EAT! Ive found that this has helped me tremedously in losing the weight. But enough about my weightloss journey.

Life in general is overall good. I'm trying to branch out and make new friends. Joined the Runner's club here, would be fantastic to meet others who share the same passion as I do!! My finances are good too. I want to branch out more and make some investments. So if anyone has any advice in regards to doing this, please let me know. Ive thought about checking out the online stuff, like fidelity, but I think I may have to do some research before I chunck some of my savings into this. Will keep you posted on what I do here. Also starting to really clamp down on my credit. I got my score and well its pretty awesome!! Something to be proud of, its the little things. I requested copies of my credit reports from the 3 big firms that look at that: Equifax, Experian, and Transunion. You can get yours too for free at http://www.annualcreditreport.com/ You can pull all three from here.Not all are the same so check them for mistakes and accuracies. Letting a mistake slide can cost you anywhere from extra interest fees to a hit to your credit score. So I highly suggest you do this and Im sure Suze Orman would agree. :)


As far as still being single, well I am. Given all the changes Ive made for myself, I want to say I am ok with being alone for now. and Maybe someday my prince charming will come but maybe he wont. For now, I will continue to work on me.